Heard some fireworks this evening. Can’t be fun for someone who’s a veteran with PTSD, I suppose? As with dogs. Unless they know how so well how different weapons sound that it wouldn’t sound like a small gun or anything. I biked through the woods along an empty road and thought about the forrest as looking kind of welcoming now that I’ve been out there somewhat more this year, then across a river in the dark – which reminded me of running intervalls in winter, up north (most of us looked close to throwing up during that). We’d thrown our ice cleats to rest at the beginning of this bridge, then we put them back on and jogged home in double columns.
Thinking about joining a gun club across the river and bike there. I’d get the workout from the biking back and forth, and I’d re-live some of the army thrills at the range. Maybe after New York I’m going to go and see them. The thing is that when I do, I want to really commit to it if so. So I’m going to think about it. Can one even bike while carrying here? And can you even store a gun (in Sweden) in a Student apartment? The laws are so strict… speaking of strict: tomorrow I have to code in HTML Strict… yessir. Goodnight.
Hey, it’s been a while. Didn’t forget you! I’m finishing off a UX-design course right now, learning some cool things and am to spruce up this site a bit – make it into my online portfolio, with the blog as well. I soon have to get back to creating more wireframes in Balsamiq. And I booked a much longed-for trip to New York in the new year! Much excited about that!
I was reading an article on stuff to do if you’re alone on the holidays (or at least on xmas day). It seems the train tickets are a mess around this time of the year… expensive, and 4-5 changes instead of 1 (train to bus changes that are normally just train), and I have a class in coding over the holidays as well that I need to finish another portfolio for before I fly out.
So, one of the first thing on the list of to-dos that one could do when alone was to volunteer, the article let me know. I thought, hey that’s a great idea – I’ve volunteered before, it’s badass and good for people so why not, I can do that. However, I don’t believe in the “lord”, you know, more like; hard work, motivational strategies, whatever-works-for-yous-all, and the law of attraction!? So, it doesn’t really make sense to me to be participating in a church ceremony and serve food… the “advertisement” said nothing about homeless people, immigrants, or veterans, which may have convinced me more? If you’re in Sweden and want to check for volunteer events yourselves, here is a page I found that posts a lot of volunteer work, incl. what I just mentioned: Volontärbyrån – you can search by city or anything like. I have volunteer worked at SPCA in Tel Aviv before, and I know for a fact that there is a kitty shelter on the upper east side in New York so definitely check that out. I believe ASPCA of NYC need their volunteers to come in pretty regularly as well (or perhaps just with dog walkers) but I’d encourage you to read up on it. In Tel Aviv, I helped bring in a malnourished kitty that my friend had found alone and lost on the street – brought it across town in a cardboard box with holes via bus. If you had access to a car there you could help in more “advanced” rescue missions as well, maybe that goes for NYC, too, I’m not sure?
Well, also I did watch Before The Flood and I’ve had more vegetarian food of late. But when I have time I shall make American Pancakes… I did buy some eggs and milk the other day. Most of my food have been organic of late as well. Dunno, environment has been increasingly on my mind. But it’s caused me to think more now that I’m aware. For example, I thought I’d buy tofu ice cream and I leaned into the “ice cream” ice box in the store to grab the one I’ve seen so many times when I was younger at kids’ parties where someone was lactose-intolerant… the TofuLine one like. Has an octagon shape, black color like UFC-inspired perhaps. Love the UFC, so it felt cool, right!? Well – PALM OIL. Dammit. What’s better now? Locally produced ice-cream, or who-knows-wherefrom-derived vegan/vegetarian brand incl. palm-oil?
To my point with this post however, I found something in my style in regards to volunteer work… only it wouldn’t do it for just the holidays, I’d have to commit for a longer time. But that may just be what I want to do for this next year… this ! (It’s a crime victim support service) You learn some stuff… call people, help ’em in court… I think it’s awesome. But there’s a lower limit to your monthly involvement. I think something like 6-8 hours, 3 cases (supports) like? Either way, I was in the military and studied some crime stuff and it struck me that there sure is a lack of bravery and lack of staff for these kinda professions. I mean bravery and knowledge about such as what you’re allowed to do when someone attacks you and tries to steal your laptop or something. Can you hit them back? For instance, I learned that if I saw someone do that to you (military or not) I could step in and help ya – with some force, too (matching the level of the criminal) – it’s called “Hjälparens rätt” in Sweden. *Helper’s rights* or something.
How many people knew that? Or what if someone starts a fight in a club or at a bar and goes ballistic, starting to punch on an innocent… it shouldn’t be so that people don’t dare to step in to stop it just because they don’t want to get involved in court later (perhaps they’d think they might be mixed up as being the perpetrator). That’s why I think crime victims should always have someone to talk to and teach them about their rights, and let them know how they may stand up for themselves – at least later on if they couldn’t do it earlier because either they didn’t know of their rights or they were simply outed by the criminal. A lot of people are needed for this I read. I’m considering it. Also because I think it would be a life-experience, and I like law – I noticed however that it takes many years of studying which is costly even in Sweden, and furthermore that it’s bound by country (since national laws differ from place to place)… if I had the money and was born in America I may have at least become a paralegal though. I saw a great award-winning short film last year that I found out about through the course I was taking in Digital Movie Making at the time. It was fantastic! You can read about it on IndieWire. The Phone Call.
Also here is a trailer for it:
Will you be a volunteer this holiday season? Or are you a regular volunteer at some place?
Let me know in the comments below, or tweet me!
Take care, and wherever you are, whoever with – happy holidays!
Hope you are well! I wanted to check in with you and share some news. I finished my book about learning and digital yesterday, it’s called 11:11. I will try to publish it here on the blog for you all to see very soon! But first off, let me say I’ve had this beautiful time of learning today.
I started off with some yoga at home, and then I went onto doing some pushups, working my back muscles with some weights, etc. and started listening to a complete Feldenkrais lesson on YouTube at the same time! Feldenkrais was a physicist! I really liked the introductory talk about him. Very motivational. Much worth it! 🙂
I just realized something massive when I followed this whole video and did the lesson! If the brain only wants to adjust to where it sees “possibility” in terms of movement as I both heard from the teacher and was able to feel for myself here, then maybe the thoughts work similarly? And perhaps that’s why the Law of Attraction (The Secret) and similar methods (The Silva Method) work; because you truly imagine possibility! And also while show jumping, you’re supposed to look at the next obstacle already while you’re flying over one… maybe that’s just a way to put our attention on the next thing so that our body moves with us and the horse can feel it and so it, too, turns easier as a result… rather than that we can “think ahead”. Wow. Because in horsemanship you practice a lot of small movements as well – working with the movement of the horse instead of against it or trying to be the one who decides over it.
I’m going to work on my script now. Shooting next week. But I felt I should share this experience. I was sitting down and looking over to my left shoulder… well, barely! I was barely looking past my left shoulder to begin. Whereas the end of this lesson I was able to look past the point of right behind me. The brain is magnificent! Really.
Also I tried this TheraPearl eye mask, putting it on for 20 minutes before I got to sleep. And so I’ll listen to The Silva Method (the long relaxation exercise) while I keep the mask on… kind of drift off to sleep for a bit, wake up by an alarm I’ve set for 20 min., take the mask off and just put it by my side on a table without leaving bed… and then drift fully into sleep! Next morning I have almost no dark circles under my eyes, not much puffiness… and I feel lovely!:) Tomorrow I’m getting a haircut and I’m going to have a wonderful weekend myself, I wish the same for you… and may all your wishes come true!
I had placed the banana cartons that I’m to pack my stuff in for my move on the veranda – BAD IDEA – with the first box I brought in I found a little spider, so I ran out and shook it off but it stayed dangling in spider-web. Had to cut the cord with my fingers shaped like a pair of scissors. But then I figured I should bring in a least another box to let it “dry up” from any dampness from the outdoors too, in preparation, and as I opened the lid on that yet another spider appeared! A long-legged one! But I shook it off with a shriek, “OOOH” because I had stayed outside this time.
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Anyway, I figure I needed a little break from watching The Magicians after one episode. It reminded me of a lot of things. Like, how I used to want to be a magician as a kid… one of my first “goals” you might say. Yeah, this was way before Harry Potter. I sat alone in the dark hallway of the house while my parents were watching TV and I thought of ways to make a white dove appear out of nowhere. I went into their bedroom and got a red silk scarf with white stripes and I sat back onto the floor and tried moving the fabric up and down from the floor and around to make it appear and said a few magical-sounding lines, kinda like “Dove – Appear!!!” ha ha…
I’d found a dove made of silvery paper – I’d say less than an inch big – on my way home from school. Thinking back it kind of looked like a mark on credit cards. I got the keys to walk home by myself when I was pretty young. I also had a pretend-friend that I called “Nobody”. Sad!? Maybe. Maybe scary? Have you ever thought about those ghost-stories that are about what kids see? I mean who knows what really was there, at least the imagination runs wild when you’re a kid and that’s a good thing, you know. If you have good acting teachers, you’ll learn not to be afraid of the imagination itself later on. That it is OK to imagine. It’s for the sake of ART. I’ve experienced awesome things in college due to like body movement and training that would be so basic and yet intense – so very human – and the focus would get so utterly clear and the experiences half-way into it and after so very vivid… as with the Feldenkrais Method that we practiced, for example. It’s so wonderful.
Anyway, listen to this whole thing and but specifically 12:53 minutes in:
And it makes me think back to yesterday. I was driving this machine around at work and it made an awful sound. I knew it had been said to be bad, and that they’re going to replace it, but my dad (who’s very technical, smart and innovative) always tells me to react if something sounds wrong and check it out… basically, to try and solve it. Well, I figured, I tried different buttons, different speeds… and I found that the button I specifically needed for the machine to do its thing was the one that caused the sound. And I discovered that a fast pace did not help either. So I drove around for a few more minutes, thinking like alright, well this is my job and I had planned on doing this and few people are still working so they shouldn’t be too bothered if I do it quick and short. Well, then I drove over the bit farther away and got back, but pretty soon I spotted one guy working on the other side of the hall and I felt like I had to think of something else. Turns out… slowing down at a much slower pace did not cause the sounds at all, even with that button pressed… so, then I could finish the whole job and I did solve part of the problem by figuring out when the problem is Not a problem and by focusing on the little bits that worked.
I don’t know if you see the connection I’m seeing with Feldenkrais and this machine, magic, and more… but it’s basically a “trick” I’ve learned over the years, as in motivation – that if you can figure out what you DON’T WANT, then you can turn it around and make it about what you DO WANT… figure out what IT IS that YOU DO WANT by knowing what you don’t want and yeah, just flip it around. And now, I know magic is a lot about illusions such as you want to make someone focus on something else while you’re doing another thing. Magic is basically the ART of politics and the CIA, right… if you want to use it for that. Hopefully not, I mean I wish magic was used only for good stuff. Sometimes it gets a bit too alien for me. I’ve been watching Stranger Things on Netflix and then watched real videos from survivors of the MKUltra experiments on youtube. Scary stuff!
How about this badass marketing method of Hitchcock… or is it badass, or a little… PSYCHO? A quick google search gives you “Psychological Marketing”… but what is and what is even brainwashing or mind-control? Like, these are totally relevant subjects considering there are current talks about possible SPIES and insiders at Swedish authorities on the radio and it seems many experiments in history stem from a fear of the “commie”! And, speaking of fear, Psycho was a scary movie that used some wicked marketing tactics. Brilliant or crazy I don’t know, but it sure sold:
Moreover, I started watching, The Magicians… got me thinking about autumn, pumpkin latter and hot cider because the girl in the first episode wore the kind of flannel scarf that seems to be connected to all magical shows… you know, Harry Potter like. BTW, the first “thick” book I finished was Harry Potter. Why? Because I liked the subject of magic but I specifically remember the black and silver pages with stars after each chapter. You remember those? Every time I got to those I’d put down the book and go to sleep… or I’d be inspired to read another chapter to reach the next starry page, or read on half-way and think… ah, at least soon I’ll be at another page with those stars… like that saying, uh, “Don’t put off until tomorrow, what you can do today.” Or, I’d feel like I got a step closer to my “goal”, you know!? That was a great design. Really left a mark on me… got me excited about reading more. A great, simple design. Think about it… one picture on a page like. A film is just a bunch of pictures or frames at high-speed… I was so annoyed when I heard somebody say on a ghost-story podcast recently that “Film doesn’t blink.” Well, of course it does. It blinks like a billion times or whatever, mate! Otherwise it’d just be a still picture and not a movie. A quick google picture search on Harry Potter + star pages showed me that people got these as tattoos… so I guess I’m not the only one that they meant something to. I don’t love the books but I did like this design for the purpose.
Also, it got me thinking about some 2 years ago like, when I had applied for a US green card lottery for… well, not the first time. And my friend, old class-mate, who’s now working as an actor, even got his name in The LA Times for his acting… well, he told me about Chaos Magic and Sigil Magic. So for a while I looked that up and a bunch of other magic-related content on youtube. And I created an inspiration board or whatever, just for myself, on Pinterest – with all those videos. I think I’ve seen two magicians in my childhood. One which really surprised me, and another that was more of a showman. I don’t know, I didn’t win, you know, but I find it fun to think about. Did you see Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell? Another magic show I started watching with my brother before… some year back I’d say.
This one (below) is pretty cool, you know a documentary. I didn’t know how much magic went on by… Coney Island, was it!? It was a while ago since I watched this, I gotta watch it again – it was saved on that board I created. I mean, I’ve been to Coney Island and I can absolutely imagine it being a thing there… I shot a bit of film on my Ipad there for class before. Feels like a magical place from the moment you get off the subway and feel the sea breeze… You know, perhaps we just like these magic shows because they remind us of being kids again as we had a better imagination then – like it’s some kinda longing within us? Or maybe I’m speaking for myself. I love acting and it’s a lot about the imagination – and I haven’t been able to keep it up so much as of late so maybe it’s just my own craving. But either way, perhaps somebody feels the same… 😉
Oh well, have a magical day! 😉 I need to keep on packing etc. Hopefully no spiders! What are your experiences with magic and the rest of it?